Looking back through the memories
Remembering your eyes and the way you kissed me
I felt the chemistry
I felt alive
It was everything i wanted
Why weren’t you satisfied
I was never enough for you
You couldnt let me go
You were greedy
Feeding on me and my energy
Even though you didn’t want me
yet im still yours and might always will be
let me go
I get fascinated, intrigued, curious at how FUCKED UP I AM, yet perceived as functional, capable, able to function in society
Lately I’ve been worried that this is as good as my life will get. From this point forward I’m afraid things will only get worse. The economy will crash, the environment will get worse, and corporations will run our lives. I know it seems really dystopian and negative for me to view things this way but I’ve always struggled financially and I just can’t imagine stability sticking around.
Medically, I am diagnosed with anxiety but is there a syndrome where you are not compatible with humans? Sometimes life gets so shit that I wonder if I have a disease which means every human encounter I have is just stressful. I get on well with flowers and some animals but aside from that I am not compatible with anything
